Trains!!!

So, I leave tomorrow for Illinois. I'm really excited!! But I'm also extremely nervous. I'll write about it all when I get back on Wednesday!

Be Kind To People while I'm gone! <3

:-D

MY MOM SAID YES TO ME GOING!!!!!!!!

Glen was right

So I went to this show last week with my mom to see The Swell Season. They won the Academy Award for Best Original Song for their song Falling Slowly from the movie Once. If you haven't seen it, please do because it's amazing. =]

Anyway, Glen was talking about how he dosen't like technology because it ruins the whole being personal thing. He said he likes letters better than e-mails because you can hold the persons words in your hands. You can touch it, kiss it, smell it, almost hold the person in the letter. So, I wrote a letter to my boy who I'm pineing after, and....he called me last night. It was the most awesome thing ever because I never knew that a letter could be this powerful and persuade him to call me. I've been really happy ever since that call and I hope I get more of them.

The best part was, he called just to talk and see how I was. He told me that he missed me and he wants me to come and vist over the summer!! I'm so exicted for it! I just hope my mom says yes. =]

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I'll Swim The Ocean For You

Love to me is just a huge joke. I don't think I've ever been in love, nor do I really even plan on it. But I think that this one boy might change it all for me. I ache I pine I perish for him. But...No...He has a girlfriend who is crazy and will most likely try and hurt me if I ever meet her.


Maybe if everyone just loved everyone the world would be a lot better. No more jealousy...no more anger...just love.

I would like to challange anyone who reads this to say or smile to people that they know or don't know. Make the world a little more friendly for everyone, not just yourself. <3

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Metro Station

Ummmm Yea....I pretty much love Metro Station now. I've been listening to them a lot lately and I can't stop. They have that kind of sound that you can never get tired of. Kelsey is my favorite song by them. I could listen to it over and over again and never lose that warm feeling that I get when I hear it. It's pretty much awesome. =]

Check them out!!

www.purevolume.com/metrostation

New Religion?

I think it's funny now a days when people talk about global warming, they ask 'Do you believe in it?' Some people in my history class yesterday were talking about it and my teacher goes, 'Yes, it's my savior.' Of course he was joking, but when you ask people if you believe in something, it makes it sound like a religion with Al Gore as the head honcho of it. Maybe people should think about how they word things and stop making it sound like some big huge cult. Who cares if you think that Global Warming is real? It's not gonna do anything expect maybe start a debate about who is right and who is wrong. It's not about if you believe in it or not, it's if you think it's real. I don't put my faith and my belief into global warming and I don't think too many other people do either.

Just Let Her Go

Ok, if you're a teenage girl and you want to get out of class and you have a male teacher, all you have to do is pull the peroid card. This is how it would go down.

Girl: Mr. Brady, can I go to the bathroom?
Mr. Brady: No.
(This is where you start the fake tears)
Girl: But...But...Mr. Brady. I HAVE a problem that needs to be taken care of.
Mr. Brady: What's this problem that needs to be taken care of?
Girl: I...I can't tell you. It's personal.
(At this point the male teacher will be freaking out and will just let you go.)


Remeber girls, use this only once or tiwce a month or else he'll get suspicious.

Springish Type Weather!!!

Ok, so today is the most perfect pre-spring weather. It's sunny outside and the wind is blowing. I love it! It's warm enough to wear shorts and t-shirts!! But then tomorrow is supposed to be really yucky but I hope the weather man is wrong!!

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You're Awful, I Love You!

Ok, so I'm offically in love with Ludo's new album. It makes me really happy to listen to and it's so fun to sing to. I'm so proud that these boys are from St. Louis and making a name for themseleves on Island Records. I'll always love you LUDO!!!!


www.ludorock.com

Check them out!

Suspension

I'm looking forward to Saturday a lot. I'll be hanging out with this really awesome guy for his birthday. I'm not really sure what we're gonna do yet, but I'm very exicted. =]

Paper Beads

You finger the paper beads wrapped around my neck
As if they’re the cure to your pain.
You can’t take your eyes off of me
While you’re looking in my soul for a cure that maybe there.

You smile at me and my heart skips a beat
I can’t believe this is happening.
You stare at me from across the room
and watch every single move I make.

I’m here. let me take away your pain
I’m here. oh please let me be the only one to make you smile
I will watch you. I will help you. Just let me in.
I will watch you. I will help you. Oh, please just let me in for one day.

You pull the bobby pin out of place
And let my hair lay in a mess.
You make faces at me and console in me
When will you ever learn.

The mocking doesn’t do anything
But force me to want you more.
To prove that I can do what you say I can’t.
But you believe in me. You always have.

I’m here. let me take away your pain
I’m here. oh please let me be the only one to make you smile
I will watch you. I will help you. Just let me in.
I will watch you. I will help you. Oh, please just let me in for one day.

Let me in for just one day.

Alone In The World

Lately, I've been feeling really depressed lately. And it's not because my grandpa died or my cat died. And I asked my dad if I could go back to counseling, and he was like, 'What for? You're fine'. I almost lost it there. Everything seems to be going wrong in my life right now. I feel like I don't have any friends that I can really rely on. I'm afraid to have a Movie Night at my house for people from church cause I'm afraid that no one will come. I have to keep a journal about what makes me happy during the day to see the good things in life. My mom doesn't see this at all cause I'm already a disappoint to her. My brother is being really cool about it, but when I really need him, he's not here. God...I have no idea what to do. I don't go back to counseling until next week and I have no idea what's going to happen between then and now.

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Once

Bailey: you've got the curse of curves
Steph: hmm
Steph: i do dont i?
Steph: damn im fine
Bailey: lmao
Steph: but bailey you have the gift of one liners AND the curse of curves
Steph: you're like a double threat
Bailey: lol


I love my friends...

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She Lived A Long Life...

So, this morning I woke up and went to go to the bathroom, and my cat was laying dead on the bathroom floor. I don't blame her for dieing there. It's always been really warm in there. She's been sick for a really long time and she was 17. She was really skinny too in the end. Callie was my best friend, and I will miss her greatly.

They're Catching On To Us...

So, I think I might start a Vlog on Youtube. I already have an account on there, so I think I might just put those vlog posts on there. It should be fun. I think I'll post one later today about my good day, then maybe another one later this week. Wish me luck!

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And If I Die Right Now, You'll Never Be The Same

I've been feeling really down lately for some reason. I know my grandpa died and everything, and I am sad about that, but that's not the thing that's getting me down. Maybe it's the fact that I'm really lonely. Maybe it's that school isn't that appealing to me. I don't know. But whatever it is, I want it to go away because I feel like shit all the time and I can't talk to anyone about it cause they'll think I'm crazy. I don't look like I would be depressed, but I am. And...I don't know.

I feel like I don't have anyone that I can go and talk to if I need to. Alyssa and Steph are always too busy to see me and I don't ever hang out with anyone besides them. Maybe I should start hanging out with people from my church...But they're always too 'busy' too. Geez...

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Swim Suit Blues

OK, so last night I went out and bought a swim suit. I know it's January, but that means they're creeper. ANYWAY...I tried it on when I got home for my mom and this is what she said.

"You might want to lose a few pounds before going out in public like that."

Wow...Why in the world would you tell your low self esteem, once suicidal, 15 year old daughter that???

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Saftey Pins

School is a total drag. Sitting in this white room with white floors is not how I want to be spending my time. But oh well. I cannot wait to go to Chicago. It's not for another 65 more days, but oh well. It's only 66 days till I get to see some really amazing people. Then Con is 86 days away. I'm really exicted for that too. But Chicago is what I cannot wait for. Not only do I get to hang out with some really cute boys, but I get to see Wicked! That's 67 days away. Wow...I am a huge dork.

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!!!!!!!

Ok, normally, I keep my phone on me at all times because I'm a freak. Well....today...at 9:05 PM, the guy who I haven't talked to since November called me...and my phone was not on me. WHAT THE HELL???? Ok, I've learned my lesson. From now on, keep my phone on me at ALL TIMES!!


OH! I'm going to see him in Chicago for my birthday!!!! But I'm not 100% sure if he knows that yet...That's why I REALLY need to talk to him. Maybe I'll call him tomorrow...

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New Year. New Me.

These are some resolutions that I've decided to make. OK, here we go.

1. Drink a lot less soda.

2. Exercise more. (3-5 times a week)

3. Focus less on boys and focus more on school.

4. Watch less TV.

5. Join/Start a band.

6. Leave less of a carbon footprint.

7. Bike more places even when I get my car.

8. Call my grandparents once a week just to see how they're doing.

9. Pass Honors English with a B

10. Stay in touch with people that I've met.

11. Be nice to my mom even when she's being a bitch.


OK, I think that's it.

Happy New Year!!

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